My Little Brothers

U know how everyone has that special people in their life in ways no one else can figure out? well , i have...not one but 2 actually...from the left is ahmad ,he is the little brother of mine :) he is cute in his many ways XD. He is very down to earth....always there wen i need advice And on the other side is Zaki ,he is my little brother too. Both oso little coz im the eldest :)....zaki is my "wanna kena" buddy :)) we have that special hand gesture thing~ well ,only we have it :) thats why its special coz no one understands whats happening wen we do it :) We're kinda the trio bitches (ahmad's word).....Ahmad is the rich bitch :) Zaki is the witch bitch (idk where that came from) and I am the Mean Bitch....Im not so mean actually.....i am when im angry,that mean-ness in me is strting to come (LONG STORY BEHIND THAT) but im trying hard to control it....lololol kk enuf bout me.. Well thats the 3 of us. We're always together at tuition...its just how it is :)) Im happy to have them :) My little brothers <3 I love you both and you guys know that :D kk gtg now byee!

FML!

Things didnt turn out the way i thought it would. I thought i found the right one who will always be there for me and who claims to say he loves me too. Well ,its all upside down. I never thought he could be so self-centered. I mean i can actually stay up all night thinking whether ur okay and he nver thought of asking me if i was okay. Im the one facing the people right now ,he isnt. They are depending on my answers coz they think its my fault. They always think its my fault. For once in my life i thought it was different. But no! Its always the same! IM SO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW! i cant handle anything right because im scared and he can actually question me as tho im the criminal here. Im going thru what he is going thru but what i go thru is worst thinking that everyone knows and are all into this thing. But with u ,There is no pressure at all coz no one knows. Be considerate and think also about me. I need ur support not questions and high tone anger. I hurt my friends ,because of me ,they might all get scolding. I dont blame them for anything. Its entirely my fault. I feel like i shudnt be in that school anymore. Im better off in a convent. I might as well end up as a lesbian than to go thru all this shit! To my friends ,Im so sorry for what i have done. Maybe some of them dont know whats happening and i hope when they do they dont hate me. Well ,as far as i know ,he already is starting to hate me i guess. The way he spoke to me with that tone was the tone that scared the hell outta me. He was talking to me like im the bad guy and that im at fault for everything....When all i need is their support. Im so scared! I have to face them everyday! Im so scared....

ITS OVER! :D

Exams are over! School's out! Well ,not exactly but yeah exams are pretty sure done! :))) Tomorrow is teachers day celebration at school :D I cant wait! THE FOOD! THE FUN! THE FRIENDS! THE SNAPPING HERE N THERE! hahahaha its gonna be awesomely fun tomorrow.  Imma be the camera woman like i always do :) Romeo and I are gonna snap a picture.. Then yeah i'll show y'all who he is :) He has a small boy's face. Adorable. Really :) Tomorrow is gonna be fun as well as boring too...boring in the sense that teachers are gonna make us sit there n give a long lecture for the teacherrs from the ministry but the students are becoming the sacrifice. Isnt that sad? Aiyo :(( But well ,what is the camera for? Hahahahahha Im planning on bringing my ipod then maybe i will use romeo's lappie and upload my songs into my friends pendrive to heat things up in 4science1 :) Well thats all for now i guess. TTYL :) Byyeeee

Im the happiest person today!!!!!!!!!! I got Justin Bieber perfume!! Someday!!!! Darshan massi got me the perfume from her friend who just got back from her honeymoon and OMG im so happy as soon as i saw the bottle.....from the box itself i was screaming...

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i cant explain how happy i am that i got the perfume......i feeeeeel so good and the perfume......it smells like argghhhhhh so niceeeeeeee!

Love Has No Words

I cant imagiine what i'd do if i never had you. I love you baby! I love u so much! <3

King Of Hearts

=D

Well ,the word has spreaded. Now majority knows who my best friend's crush is. Well ,it wont be too long till they find out about mine ryte? Knowing them ,they'll dig n dig n dig to get it. But i wish i could tell them all......But at times i just cant ,coz it would be ridiculous if they knew. Having My best friend know is good enuf is because i trust her and her alone. No one else. Maybe its coz they might find it stupid n impossible but she doesnt. She thinks "Romeo" is cute...she agree's to mostly everything i talk about... I really am grateful to have a friend like her :) That dialogue that we use " How could you do this to me!" "u know!" "I dont deserve this" and yadaa yadaa yadaa...hahahahhaha She is truly an awesome friend...Always there when i need her ;))) The fact that everyone knws about her ....i know wht she must be feeling;. She must have felt embarassed and really scared for the gang to know. I saw her face and i felt it too.....Im afraid tht they will find out my "Romeo" someday but i know i can trust her :) she's all i can afford to trust.....hopefully by then i tell him how i feel....and then things might just be alright i guess.......I'll never know

Things that I WANT!

My Bedroom! a mix of this and the next one ;)

Im abit choosy :) well ,GIRLS! what do u expect! Imma get all these things....my future will be with these things...maybe by then it'll be a lil upgraded :)))) "im random today" "explains all the random posts" hahahah Goodnight! :))

My future wardrobe :)

My dream car <3

What should i do?

U know the feeling where u just got out of something and u wanna move on but u cant and then another feeling just come rushing in?? Im having that feeling. Well,i just went thru a breakup like 3 weeeks ago. It was hard because i really loved the guy and he was also my best friend and all. BUt he still is my best friend ,he calls me now and then ,we text almost everyday. And then comes the other feeling....I know im over him but i know i care. This other friend of mine has got me having feelings for him pulak!. We're both veryy different...but he is really nice and all....He is cute too! :)) tall ,fair ,smoooth skin,braces and smart too. We've been friends since form 3 n now we see each other like all the  time n we hangout alot also. I really like talking to him. It makes me feel really open. Walking next to him ,he calls me short and well ,like i tell everyone! Im proud to be short :) im small but mighty. I hate that this feeling all coming before the exams n while im so stressed up! This shud come after the exams kan/? aiyo! Its reallyyyy unpredictable at times la! and we cant really do anything to control it! mhmmm anyways gtg study! Byee :D

Its all bout me ,me ,me ,me ,me =)

I basically possess strong and attractive personalities. They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things, they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades them that they have been mistaken. They have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument without shilly-shallying as to which side to take. Consequently they are unprejudiced and tolerant of other points of view. This is because they can see the validity of the argument, even if they do not accept it themselves. They obey the Quaker exhortation to "Be open to truth, from whatever source it comes," and are prepared to learn from everyone.

Both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners. They appreciate opportunities for meditation or, if they are religious, of retreats. Even in company they are fiercely independent, refusing to follow the crowd. They dislike interference by others, however helpfully intended, and will accept it only on their own terms. Normally they have good taste in drama, music and art, and are also gifted in the arts, especially drama.

In spite of the often intensely magnetic, forthcoming and open personality of the more extrovert kind of Aquarian, and of their desire to help humanity, neither type makes friends easily. They sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to them.

They do not give themselves easily - perhaps their judgment of human nature is too good for that - and are sometimes accounted cold. But once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life. However, they are sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable. And if they are deceived their anger is terrible. If disillusioned, they do not forgive.

I work best in group projects, provided that they are recognized as having a leading part in them. They have a feeling of unity with nature and a desire for knowledge and truth that makes them admirable scientists, especially astronomers and natural historians.They may excel in photography, radiography, electronics - anything connected with the electrical and radio industries

Among the faults to which i am liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in their opinions. I can be a threat to all they survey or a great boon for humanity in general. Circumstances - for example, continuous opposition to a cause they hold dear - may cause the atrophy of the openness of mind that is one of the  most attractive traits of mine. They may express a lack of integrity in broken promises, secretiveness or cunning. Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of me. This can also reveal itself in a sustained hatred for enemies that is capable of enlarging itself into a misanthropy toward the whole of mankind.

My starstone is the beautiful turqoise :))))