FML!

Things didnt turn out the way i thought it would. I thought i found the right one who will always be there for me and who claims to say he loves me too. Well ,its all upside down. I never thought he could be so self-centered. I mean i can actually stay up all night thinking whether ur okay and he nver thought of asking me if i was okay. Im the one facing the people right now ,he isnt. They are depending on my answers coz they think its my fault. They always think its my fault. For once in my life i thought it was different. But no! Its always the same! IM SO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW! i cant handle anything right because im scared and he can actually question me as tho im the criminal here. Im going thru what he is going thru but what i go thru is worst thinking that everyone knows and are all into this thing. But with u ,There is no pressure at all coz no one knows. Be considerate and think also about me. I need ur support not questions and high tone anger. I hurt my friends ,because of me ,they might all get scolding. I dont blame them for anything. Its entirely my fault. I feel like i shudnt be in that school anymore. Im better off in a convent. I might as well end up as a lesbian than to go thru all this shit! To my friends ,Im so sorry for what i have done. Maybe some of them dont know whats happening and i hope when they do they dont hate me. Well ,as far as i know ,he already is starting to hate me i guess. The way he spoke to me with that tone was the tone that scared the hell outta me. He was talking to me like im the bad guy and that im at fault for everything....When all i need is their support. Im so scared! I have to face them everyday! Im so scared....